12 years lump showing strange symptoms

[anxiousandy]

Ive had a hard pebble sized lump on top of my right testicle near the epididymis since I was 11 years old. I never got it looked at and I'm 23 now. Since then I found another same sized lump on the same testicle but actually on the epididymis itself and my testicle is noticeably larger. For the past year I've been experiencing dull aches in my lower right abdomen everyday that sometimes moves to my lower back, hip, leg and flanks just under the bottom of my ribs. The pain is very dull and seems to be more noticeable at night or after eating. I've also noticed a change in my bowels that sometimes include broken or loose stool and sometimes what I think might be small amounts of red blood and mucus in my stool. I have constant gas that smells pretty foul, i burp a lot and constant gurgling in my lower right abdomen like little bubbles. I also get muscle spams. I feel like I'm over reacting and At this point every little thing that happens in my body feels like a symptom. I'm so scared im losing my mind. Ovet the past year the symptoms have pretty much stayed the same. They have gotten a little better at times but never any worse. Please help me with any information or encouraging words. This is a fear that has been with me my entire life and I feel hopeless. I've been so stressed about it so I finally set up an appointment but now I'm really scared and anxious about what to expect. what can I expect? Is it even possible to have cancer at 11 years old or have it for 12 years and barely see symptoms now? What is going on with me?

[Scott]

I'm pretty confident you don't have testicular cancer, but I'm glad you've scheduled a doctor's appointment. Every human body needs good care and maintenance.

Can you describe "noticeably larger"?

[anxiousandy]

Like my right testicle is bigger than the left one. I don't know how to measure it but when you look at them the right is very obviously bigger.

[Scott]

Can you quantify, even approximately? Some size difference is normal. Twice as big, for example, probably isn't.

[anxiousandy]

No it's not twice the size or even close. Just maybe about a quarter of the size larger? I don't know if that makes sense :\ no bigger than a quarter inch larger

[Scott]

I suspect it's normal. When is your doctor's appointment?

[anxiousandy]

First week of may... I feel like I'm facing a death sentence. Thanks for helping me but I still feel like I have every symptom.

[Davepet]

First week of may... I feel like I'm facing a death sentence. Thanks for helping me but I still feel like I have every symptom.

Then it's good you are going to the doctor to find out for sure. Worrying about things is worse than finding out for sure.

[anxiousandy]

I'm pretty confident you don't have testicular cancer, but I'm glad you've scheduled a doctor's appointment. Every human body needs good care and maintenance.

Can you describe "noticeably larger"?

What makes you confident that I don't have tc? Also I don't think the size of my testicle is normal. It's not huge but it's definitely not normal.

[anxiousandy]

I mean what are the odds that I'm experiencing symptoms but that it's not tc?

[anxiousandy]

It's so hard to bring myself to do this. It's like a lifelong fear and secret that I've ran away from for most of my life. I've been plagued by this for so long... It's like the culmination of everything that's ever held me back. It's so sad, I feel like such a coward. But I'm tired of running and it seems like my body is showing these weird signs that I can't run from anymore. I've ran from this for half my life. It's effect my school life and family life and social life. I've never been able to look into the future because I'm not sure if I have one. I feel jealous of healthy people who don't have to think about stuff like this. I feel so robbed that I had to think about my own death for the better part of my adolescence. I don't know if I can handle this. My depression is already getting the best of me how much worse if I really do have cancer... I'm sorry I'm just venting. I've never said any of this out loud.

[Scott]

I don't know if I can handle this.

You can.

You may or may not have something that needs treatment. The next step isn't agonizing over it, but following through with your doctor's appointment. Report back!

[cbvance]

Anxious

Andy, no one but a doctor will be able to tell you what is going on, there are blood tests and other diagnostic systems however that are available to determine for certain what this is that you have (or think you have).
I can promise you that an ultrasound can tell the doctors what the lump is and a CT scan will definitely reveal every thing going on inside your body (I have a few new aches and pains now that I have seen mine ).

Get an appointment as soon as possible with a urologist and get the tumor markers drawn and the ultrasound done. Then you will know for sure. The mind is a terrible thing when given free reign to cast doubt and fear.

If you have TC there is a definite course of treatment available and the cure rates for this disease are much better than other forms of cancer. If what you have is not cancer you have allowed fear of it to be worse than the disease itself. Get to the doctor and get the questions answered so you can start operating from facts instead of fears.

I am praying for you.

[anxiousandy]

But it's been 12 years! What if I'm too late?

[anxiousandy]

I'm pretty confident you don't have testicular cancer

What makes you say that?