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    Hi everyone. First post here. I think it will be the first of many as I'm pretty convinced that I have got TC. Please bare with me while I go through what's happened to me so far.....

    In November/December of last year (2006) I started to feel a dull aching pain in my left testicle. I self-examined and although I found no lumps, my testicle was very sensitive to touch. I decided to google to find out what the pain could be but after reading the first link, I immediately closed my web browser, laid down on my bed and the room started to spin. I felt sick and was completely overwhelmed by what I read. The only part of the text that I saw said that with testicular pains, it is an emergency and the testicle should be removed immediately. That night I layed awake until 4am considering taking a walk to my local hospital as I don't drive. I decided not to and first thing in the morning, I told my parents that I was having pains. Later that day I went to see my GP. I explained the situation and told him that I read on the internet that it is very likely that the testicle should be removed. He then checked them himself but said that he could see or feel nothing and it was probably some swelling. At first I thought this was the reason as I have relativley small testicles and I always sleep on my side - causing them to perhaps crush against my legs - therefor causing swelling(??)

    Anyway, I carried on with life as normal with the aching pain still there, but it had faded away to the point where I could barely notice it. Two months down the line I noticed the pain starting to come back. I self-examined again and this time I felt a small mass on my testicle. It didn't really feel like a lump although where there is mass, there must be a lump of some type...right? It also felt like some veins were popping out and some fluid around the sack. I phoned my GP and went for another examination. He done his thing again; and again pointed out that there was nothing to worry about because he could not feel any lumps. Like I said before, my testicles are probably smaller than the average and on this occassion that I visited him, my sack had tightened to my testicles and the sack was kind of wrinkled where it was quite cold outside (sorry for the detailed info ). I told him that I was concerned and he said he would book me an ultrasound scan. He said that it was not "acute", but that he would get me a scan booked for my own piece of mind. So, off I went to the hospital to see a urologist. He checked me out, done the usual touchy-feely kinda thing and came up with the same conclusion as my GP. He could feel no lump, no mass, no nothing. But again, my testes were in the same condition and hardly ideal for examination. My doctor told me that my scan would be within a few days, but to my horror, when I took my booking slip to the appointment desk in the X-Ray department, I was told that I would have to wait at least 8 weeks for the scan!!! Luckily, I received a letter from the hospital yesterday (3 weeks after visiting) confirming that my appointment for my scan is next friday (20th April)

    Here's where things start concerning me even more though....

    Since my visit to the urologist, my right testicle has hardened slightly and I've been getting the same dull, aching sensation that I was getting in my left nut. I've also been suffering from lower-back pain on the left side aswell as slight pains on my inner-thighs. My initial reaction to these pains was that the cancer (if that is indeed what it is) is spreading around my lower back, right testicle and legs. Its driving me to depression, anxiety and panick attacks. At this very moment in time I actually fear for my life. Im only 22 and after telling my best friend that I think I have TC just a couple of hours ago, I broke down in tears for the first time in many many years.

    Please excuse me while I go off-topic for a bit, but these last couple of years have been very hard for me. I started smoking cannabis roughly 5 years ago and have been smoking cigarettes (average 15 per day) since I was 14. The cannabis does not agree with my body, but the problem is I am addicted to it. The more I smoke, the further it pushes me away from my friends and family. I feel lonely because ive lost all my friends, lost my job and my debt is spiralling out of control. The worst of it though is the fact that my family tend to look at me in a different light these days. They know I smoke cannabis regularly and even let me smoke it in my bedroom. Ive become paranoid and almost house-bound. Im scare to meet new people and im scared to be in places with lots of people. What's this got to do with TC you ask? Well, nothing really. But im sitting here now, scared that im going to lose everything I love in life. Im scared of dying, im scared of TC and im scared of even leaving the house.

    Anyway. Sorry to bore you with my long story. Im aware that every one of you guys on here are supportive of everyone that joins, so i'll do my best to support those of you already battling TC. I've read many of the success stories here on these forums and it does give me comfort knowing that people overcome TC more regularly than I think. The story about Nick and his parents had me in tears and hopefully, some day in the very near future, all of us with TC and the worries that go with it will see a light at the end of the tunnel and can come out of the situation as stronger people

    I will keep you all updated on the situation once Ive had my ultrasound scan in a week

    Regards
    JC10

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    JC, the ultrasound will be a very important step.

    Testicular cancer or not, let's get to work on conquering that smoking habit and getting your life on track. I believe you can do it!
    Last edited by Scott; 04-13-07, 09:01 PM.
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    • #3
      Thanks Scott. I am aware that the ultrasound scan is a very important step and the sooner next friday comes, the better.

      I checked out the link and it does seem very helpful, thankyou. The problem is, i've tried to quit many times and each time, regardless of the way I try to quit, I relapse and pick up the fags again within a couple of weeks.

      Although im sure that if I am diagnosed with TC it will be a totally different situation and i'll have a reason to quit, not just a desire

      Here's to hoping
      Last edited by JC10; 04-13-07, 10:40 PM.

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      • #4
        Originally posted by JC10
        The problem is, i've tried to quit many times and each time, regardless of the way I try to quit, I relapse...
        Start here and stick with it. You can do it.
        Scott, [email protected]
        right inguinal orchiectomy 6/5/2003 > nonseminoma, stage I > surveillance > L-RPLND 6/24/2005 for recurrence, suspected teratoma but found seminoma, stage II > chylous ascites until 9/2005 > surveillance and "all clear" since


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        • #5
          JC10:
          I'm going to skip the tc concers. Nothing I say will matter, the scan will tell everything.
          For a guy of 22 you have shown quite a bit of maturity, sure you're hooked on pot but at least you recognize that you have a problem. That my friend is a hugh step. Forget the past, you can't change it, but you can change the future. Don't overwhelm yourself by trying to change too much at once but start with the pot. Clean that up get, off the weed and when you do that you will really be able to redirect your life. Even if it turs out that you don't have tc stay in touch, you're a work in progress and I would love to see how amazing well you can do in the future.
          Son Jason diagnosed 4/30/04, stage III. Right I/O 4/30/04. Graduated College 5/13/04. 4XEP 6/7/04 - 8/13/04. Full open RPLND 10/13/04. All Clear since.

          Treated by Dr. Rakowski of Midland Park, NJ. Visited Sloan Kettering for protocol advice. RPLND done at Sloan Kettering.

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          • #6
            JC10,

            I agree with all of the above. I practically failed out of high school, and ran with the wrong crowd, and smoked pot and cigarettes. Some of my friends ended up reclusive, divorced and depressed, but I was luckily able to turn things around. I now hold a doctorate from a prestigious medical genetics program, and I do cancer research in a large pharmaceutical company. I've quit cigarettes (with some minor relapses involving 'social' smoking some years ago) since I was 22, and the pot always made me paranoid, so that is never an option. I've run a marathon in 3:45, and, most importantly, I'm one of the most outgoing people you'll ever meet.

            The fact that you posted that long (and well written) post shows that you have intelligence and a will to change... you can definitely do it. Lose the pot first... even though it is arguably less harmful than the tobacco. In your paranoid state, however, I think it is doing a lot of damage. Moreover, it is just much easier to quit than tobacco.

            Keep your appointment, but know that a) it is unlkely to be TC, and b) if it is, face it like a man, and deal with it, and chances are that you'll be cured. You can't be melting down at a time like that.

            Take baby steps. Set a goal (higher degree, for example) and work towards that goal. And most importantly, go out and socialize, do what you love to do, and make friends that share common interest. If and when they offer you weed, simply tell them "Yeah, I like that stuff, but it makes me to paranoid" and you'll be suprised how quicky the pressure stops. Then really try to get at the tobacco problem... at least that is my advice.

            Best of luck, and do keep us posted!

            djm
            Detected mass 10-6-06, Radical left I/O 10-10-06, Stage I seminoma, 1.5 cm primary, No LV invasion, No Rete Testis Invasion... Currently on Surveillance.

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            • #7
              Wow, djmac, that's a compelling example!
              Scott, [email protected]
              right inguinal orchiectomy 6/5/2003 > nonseminoma, stage I > surveillance > L-RPLND 6/24/2005 for recurrence, suspected teratoma but found seminoma, stage II > chylous ascites until 9/2005 > surveillance and "all clear" since


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              • #8
                Originally posted by JC10
                Hi everyone. First post here. I think it will be the first of many as I'm pretty convinced that I have got TC. Please bare with me while I go through what's happened to me so far.....

                In November/December of last year (2006) I started to feel a dull aching pain in my left testicle. I self-examined and although I found no lumps, my testicle was very sensitive to touch. I decided to google to find out what the pain could be but after reading the first link, I immediately closed my web browser, laid down on my bed and the room started to spin. I felt sick and was completely overwhelmed by what I read. The only part of the text that I saw said that with testicular pains, it is an emergency and the testicle should be removed immediately. That night I layed awake until 4am considering taking a walk to my local hospital as I don't drive. I decided not to and first thing in the morning, I told my parents that I was having pains. Later that day I went to see my GP. I explained the situation and told him that I read on the internet that it is very likely that the testicle should be removed. He then checked them himself but said that he could see or feel nothing and it was probably some swelling. At first I thought this was the reason as I have relativley small testicles and I always sleep on my side - causing them to perhaps crush against my legs - therefor causing swelling(??)

                Anyway, I carried on with life as normal with the aching pain still there, but it had faded away to the point where I could barely notice it. Two months down the line I noticed the pain starting to come back. I self-examined again and this time I felt a small mass on my testicle. It didn't really feel like a lump although where there is mass, there must be a lump of some type...right? It also felt like some veins were popping out and some fluid around the sack. I phoned my GP and went for another examination. He done his thing again; and again pointed out that there was nothing to worry about because he could not feel any lumps. Like I said before, my testicles are probably smaller than the average and on this occassion that I visited him, my sack had tightened to my testicles and the sack was kind of wrinkled where it was quite cold outside (sorry for the detailed info ). I told him that I was concerned and he said he would book me an ultrasound scan. He said that it was not "acute", but that he would get me a scan booked for my own piece of mind. So, off I went to the hospital to see a urologist. He checked me out, done the usual touchy-feely kinda thing and came up with the same conclusion as my GP. He could feel no lump, no mass, no nothing. But again, my testes were in the same condition and hardly ideal for examination. My doctor told me that my scan would be within a few days, but to my horror, when I took my booking slip to the appointment desk in the X-Ray department, I was told that I would have to wait at least 8 weeks for the scan!!! Luckily, I received a letter from the hospital yesterday (3 weeks after visiting) confirming that my appointment for my scan is next friday (20th April)

                Here's where things start concerning me even more though....

                Since my visit to the urologist, my right testicle has hardened slightly and I've been getting the same dull, aching sensation that I was getting in my left nut. I've also been suffering from lower-back pain on the left side aswell as slight pains on my inner-thighs. My initial reaction to these pains was that the cancer (if that is indeed what it is) is spreading around my lower back, right testicle and legs. Its driving me to depression, anxiety and panick attacks. At this very moment in time I actually fear for my life. Im only 22 and after telling my best friend that I think I have TC just a couple of hours ago, I broke down in tears for the first time in many many years.

                Please excuse me while I go off-topic for a bit, but these last couple of years have been very hard for me. I started smoking cannabis roughly 5 years ago and have been smoking cigarettes (average 15 per day) since I was 14. The cannabis does not agree with my body, but the problem is I am addicted to it. The more I smoke, the further it pushes me away from my friends and family. I feel lonely because ive lost all my friends, lost my job and my debt is spiralling out of control. The worst of it though is the fact that my family tend to look at me in a different light these days. They know I smoke cannabis regularly and even let me smoke it in my bedroom. Ive become paranoid and almost house-bound. Im scare to meet new people and im scared to be in places with lots of people. What's this got to do with TC you ask? Well, nothing really. But im sitting here now, scared that im going to lose everything I love in life. Im scared of dying, im scared of TC and im scared of even leaving the house.

                Anyway. Sorry to bore you with my long story. Im aware that every one of you guys on here are supportive of everyone that joins, so i'll do my best to support those of you already battling TC. I've read many of the success stories here on these forums and it does give me comfort knowing that people overcome TC more regularly than I think. The story about Nick and his parents had me in tears and hopefully, some day in the very near future, all of us with TC and the worries that go with it will see a light at the end of the tunnel and can come out of the situation as stronger people

                I will keep you all updated on the situation once Ive had my ultrasound scan in a week

                Regards
                JC10
                Wow, pretty much exactly the same as me. Good luck with your ultrasound.

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                • #9
                  Originally posted by JC10
                  Luckily, I received a letter from the hospital yesterday (3 weeks after visiting) confirming that my appointment for my scan is next friday (20th April)
                  JC, how did your appointment go yesterday?
                  Scott, [email protected]
                  right inguinal orchiectomy 6/5/2003 > nonseminoma, stage I > surveillance > L-RPLND 6/24/2005 for recurrence, suspected teratoma but found seminoma, stage II > chylous ascites until 9/2005 > surveillance and "all clear" since


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