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Hi everyone. First post here. I think it will be the first of many as I'm pretty convinced that I have got TC. Please bare with me while I go through what's happened to me so far.....
In November/December of last year (2006) I started to feel a dull aching pain in my left testicle. I self-examined and although I found no lumps, my testicle was very sensitive to touch. I decided to google to find out what the pain could be but after reading the first link, I immediately closed my web browser, laid down on my bed and the room started to spin. I felt sick and was completely overwhelmed by what I read. The only part of the text that I saw said that with testicular pains, it is an emergency and the testicle should be removed immediately. That night I layed awake until 4am considering taking a walk to my local hospital as I don't drive. I decided not to and first thing in the morning, I told my parents that I was having pains. Later that day I went to see my GP. I explained the situation and told him that I read on the internet that it is very likely that the testicle should be removed. He then checked them himself but said that he could see or feel nothing and it was probably some swelling. At first I thought this was the reason as I have relativley small testicles and I always sleep on my side - causing them to perhaps crush against my legs - therefor causing swelling(??)
Anyway, I carried on with life as normal with the aching pain still there, but it had faded away to the point where I could barely notice it. Two months down the line I noticed the pain starting to come back. I self-examined again and this time I felt a small mass on my testicle. It didn't really feel like a lump although where there is mass, there must be a lump of some type...right? It also felt like some veins were popping out and some fluid around the sack. I phoned my GP and went for another examination. He done his thing again; and again pointed out that there was nothing to worry about because he could not feel any lumps. Like I said before, my testicles are probably smaller than the average and on this occassion that I visited him, my sack had tightened to my testicles and the sack was kind of wrinkled where it was quite cold outside (sorry for the detailed info
). I told him that I was concerned and he said he would book me an ultrasound scan. He said that it was not "acute", but that he would get me a scan booked for my own piece of mind. So, off I went to the hospital to see a urologist. He checked me out, done the usual touchy-feely kinda thing and came up with the same conclusion as my GP. He could feel no lump, no mass, no nothing. But again, my testes were in the same condition and hardly ideal for examination. My doctor told me that my scan would be within a few days, but to my horror, when I took my booking slip to the appointment desk in the X-Ray department, I was told that I would have to wait at least 8 weeks for the scan!!! Luckily, I received a letter from the hospital yesterday (3 weeks after visiting) confirming that my appointment for my scan is next friday (20th April)
Here's where things start concerning me even more though....
Since my visit to the urologist, my right testicle has hardened slightly and I've been getting the same dull, aching sensation that I was getting in my left nut. I've also been suffering from lower-back pain on the left side aswell as slight pains on my inner-thighs. My initial reaction to these pains was that the cancer (if that is indeed what it is) is spreading around my lower back, right testicle and legs. Its driving me to depression, anxiety and panick attacks. At this very moment in time I actually fear for my life. Im only 22 and after telling my best friend that I think I have TC just a couple of hours ago, I broke down in tears for the first time in many many years.
Please excuse me while I go off-topic for a bit, but these last couple of years have been very hard for me. I started smoking cannabis roughly 5 years ago and have been smoking cigarettes (average 15 per day) since I was 14. The cannabis does not agree with my body, but the problem is I am addicted to it. The more I smoke, the further it pushes me away from my friends and family. I feel lonely because ive lost all my friends, lost my job and my debt is spiralling out of control. The worst of it though is the fact that my family tend to look at me in a different light these days. They know I smoke cannabis regularly and even let me smoke it in my bedroom. Ive become paranoid and almost house-bound. Im scare to meet new people and im scared to be in places with lots of people. What's this got to do with TC you ask? Well, nothing really. But im sitting here now, scared that im going to lose everything I love in life. Im scared of dying, im scared of TC and im scared of even leaving the house.
Anyway. Sorry to bore you with my long story. Im aware that every one of you guys on here are supportive of everyone that joins, so i'll do my best to support those of you already battling TC. I've read many of the success stories here on these forums and it does give me comfort knowing that people overcome TC more regularly than I think. The story about Nick and his parents had me in tears and hopefully, some day in the very near future, all of us with TC and the worries that go with it will see a light at the end of the tunnel and can come out of the situation as stronger people
I will keep you all updated on the situation once Ive had my ultrasound scan in a week
Regards
JC10
In November/December of last year (2006) I started to feel a dull aching pain in my left testicle. I self-examined and although I found no lumps, my testicle was very sensitive to touch. I decided to google to find out what the pain could be but after reading the first link, I immediately closed my web browser, laid down on my bed and the room started to spin. I felt sick and was completely overwhelmed by what I read. The only part of the text that I saw said that with testicular pains, it is an emergency and the testicle should be removed immediately. That night I layed awake until 4am considering taking a walk to my local hospital as I don't drive. I decided not to and first thing in the morning, I told my parents that I was having pains. Later that day I went to see my GP. I explained the situation and told him that I read on the internet that it is very likely that the testicle should be removed. He then checked them himself but said that he could see or feel nothing and it was probably some swelling. At first I thought this was the reason as I have relativley small testicles and I always sleep on my side - causing them to perhaps crush against my legs - therefor causing swelling(??)
Anyway, I carried on with life as normal with the aching pain still there, but it had faded away to the point where I could barely notice it. Two months down the line I noticed the pain starting to come back. I self-examined again and this time I felt a small mass on my testicle. It didn't really feel like a lump although where there is mass, there must be a lump of some type...right? It also felt like some veins were popping out and some fluid around the sack. I phoned my GP and went for another examination. He done his thing again; and again pointed out that there was nothing to worry about because he could not feel any lumps. Like I said before, my testicles are probably smaller than the average and on this occassion that I visited him, my sack had tightened to my testicles and the sack was kind of wrinkled where it was quite cold outside (sorry for the detailed info
). I told him that I was concerned and he said he would book me an ultrasound scan. He said that it was not "acute", but that he would get me a scan booked for my own piece of mind. So, off I went to the hospital to see a urologist. He checked me out, done the usual touchy-feely kinda thing and came up with the same conclusion as my GP. He could feel no lump, no mass, no nothing. But again, my testes were in the same condition and hardly ideal for examination. My doctor told me that my scan would be within a few days, but to my horror, when I took my booking slip to the appointment desk in the X-Ray department, I was told that I would have to wait at least 8 weeks for the scan!!! Luckily, I received a letter from the hospital yesterday (3 weeks after visiting) confirming that my appointment for my scan is next friday (20th April)Here's where things start concerning me even more though....
Since my visit to the urologist, my right testicle has hardened slightly and I've been getting the same dull, aching sensation that I was getting in my left nut. I've also been suffering from lower-back pain on the left side aswell as slight pains on my inner-thighs. My initial reaction to these pains was that the cancer (if that is indeed what it is) is spreading around my lower back, right testicle and legs. Its driving me to depression, anxiety and panick attacks. At this very moment in time I actually fear for my life. Im only 22 and after telling my best friend that I think I have TC just a couple of hours ago, I broke down in tears for the first time in many many years.
Please excuse me while I go off-topic for a bit, but these last couple of years have been very hard for me. I started smoking cannabis roughly 5 years ago and have been smoking cigarettes (average 15 per day) since I was 14. The cannabis does not agree with my body, but the problem is I am addicted to it. The more I smoke, the further it pushes me away from my friends and family. I feel lonely because ive lost all my friends, lost my job and my debt is spiralling out of control. The worst of it though is the fact that my family tend to look at me in a different light these days. They know I smoke cannabis regularly and even let me smoke it in my bedroom. Ive become paranoid and almost house-bound. Im scare to meet new people and im scared to be in places with lots of people. What's this got to do with TC you ask? Well, nothing really. But im sitting here now, scared that im going to lose everything I love in life. Im scared of dying, im scared of TC and im scared of even leaving the house.
Anyway. Sorry to bore you with my long story. Im aware that every one of you guys on here are supportive of everyone that joins, so i'll do my best to support those of you already battling TC. I've read many of the success stories here on these forums and it does give me comfort knowing that people overcome TC more regularly than I think. The story about Nick and his parents had me in tears and hopefully, some day in the very near future, all of us with TC and the worries that go with it will see a light at the end of the tunnel and can come out of the situation as stronger people
I will keep you all updated on the situation once Ive had my ultrasound scan in a week
Regards
JC10
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