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How Cancer Affected Me
Here I am just 22
With a beautiful daughter
And a man with whom I said I Do.
We are sharing our lives day by day
Happy and normal
Until the squeeze and ouch you say.
The doctor looked, prodded and poked
Yet Im a machine
You use to joke.
Catscan lead to the biopsy
What could it be?
You and I scared as can be.
Then came the dreaded night with that call
Mario you have cancer.
You laid in shock and I started to bawl.
Needles IVs - Chemotherapy
Seeing you sick and weak
It hurt deep within me.
Weeks go by and out comes your hair
Loving you unconditional
Yet you started to doubt I cared.
I was hurting so deep inside
Seeing you sick yet Im helpless
Id hide when I needed to cry.
I didnt want you to worry about me
Its not about me
Crying hurting I didnt want you to see.
I love you so much Mario my husband
Id do anything to make you feel better
Heal you, hold you grab your heart and mend.
Chemotherapy passed to months of hope yet worry
Catscans, pet-scans, blood tests galore
Please God let that mass be gone we cant take anymore.
Then comes the word
Mario its still 4cm
Surgery we really should!
Scared worried with questions of why
Im so scared, I dont want to loose him
I grab my pillow and cry.
Then comes the day of the surgery to be cancer-free,
I hold Marios hand
Then they say its time and wheel him from me.
I sit in the waiting room anxious as can be,
Just hear something from the nurse
Could really help me
Call one,
Things are going fine
hes doing great his so strong and young.
Call two, The Dr. says I need to speak with you
He comes in with blood from head to toe
His aorta burst, his bleeding real bad there may be nothing we can do.
My knees give in and I drop to the floor
I grab my mom and start to weep
I feel my heart being ripped from within my core.
With family surrounding me,
Hugging - praying
Lord God I love him please dont take him from me!
Stop the bleeding, make it stop
Crying out I scream.
Dad but I love him so much.
Time moving sooo slow,
I would look around the room
Grandma, Espie Mom and Dad
Everyone weeping with hearts sooo sad
Its not his time we all would pray
Making the bleeding stop I cried
I need him I would say!
Doctor came and said the bleeding stopped
Praise the Lord we all said
But wait the cancer still remains.
I see him bloated, with so many tubes
I burst into tears
Why all this? Why ICU?
Two weeks I lived at the hospital
Theres no way I could leave
My entire family did agree
We slept in the trailer for night after night
Watching and praying over Mario
For his will to keep up the fight!
He is improving so drastically
The Doctors are amazed
Lord watch over him and heal him so he can be cancer free
Weeks go by with anticipation
Out of ICU walking eating
I just want to take him home with me!
Finally the day comes released to go home
Excited, relieved
You are a machine you have really shown.
Months of healing still ahead
Hurt, healing
Many tears have been shed.
I had to be strong - be there for him
Help his mom and my family
It was hard but for him I would do it all again
Dialysis was so tough for him every week
Kidneys start working
So he can feel normal and begin to eat.
That soon was done and past
Mario you are doing so great
Healing and progressing so fast.
Days would get tough, with loss of hope and care
I would be crying deep inside for you
Yet, with you I would never share.
I want to you strong, healthy and happy
I want you to feel better
And know you are such a huge part of me.
When youre weak and start to cry
It hurts me so bad
It feels inside like I could die.
You are my life, my soul my everything
If I could make it go away
For you I would do anything.
Months ahead of radiation
Once your done
We will go on a vacation.
You stayed so strong,
One year has passed
But it feels sooo long.
You are done with radiation
Were so happy that now youre done
Smile, live, laugh time for some fun.
Then one morning you awake
With no strength
You go and wash your face
Bells Palsy struck you
I cry at night why Mario
What did he do?
Lord God please no more after all weve been through.
So many nights to sleep I cry
I love him so much,
He is my life for him I would die!
Please Lord God touch him and heal
No more cancer
No more hurt and pain to feel.
I hide my hurt, worries and fears
I know Ill live a long life
With Mario for many many years
If only he knew the love I had
Maybe he would see my heart
And know I will be here forever as I was from the start.
Ill keep my tears hidden in my pillow,
Worries in my head
Questions in heart I just pray lord help get through to tomorrow!
Months have passed since the radiation complete
the doctor says
Mario, I really feel cancer you have beat!
We will watch and monitor you,
see you in July
and see whether the mass is gone or grew.
Thank you Lord God for your mercy and love
for healing my husband,
continue to heal him and watch over him from above!
A recent catscan reveals more mass within - a biopsy they did to see what in the world it is.
Results have returned, still seminoma remains... we will press on and fight this disease. I really thought we were done, I thought I was sure. LORD GOD - please provide the CURE!
Two rounds of chemotherapy done,
its been rough and the hospital stays are no fun.
A catscan has been done to check the progress of the mass,
to make sure chemo is working
so more chemo, will be the last.
The results are in from the scan
Mario had a dream that beating cancer he can!
The scan reveals the mass of the lung is gone!
And the others are so small
Mario will be cancer-free soon, it wont be long!!
God is so faithful, God is so true
His unfailing love
Helps us get through
Chemo is finished he is done,
Chemicals making you sick
The three months have been no fun.
Tomorrow I pick you up for good
Bringing you home
Resting, sleeping where you should.
Your strength amazes me
Im so proud to be your wife,
And I love you unconditionally
A little set back we face
blood levels high
I take the dreaded drive to that place.
The doctors say you shouldnt be talking,
levels this high
you definitely shouldnt be walking.
You are the "Miracle Man" of City of Hope,
Its simply God, his simple miracles
And love ~ with that we cope.
The numbers are going down as they should,
God saved your kidneys,
Your life and we knew he would!
Your hospital stay feels so long,
Each day you get better
So you can come home and these days be gone.
Bringing you home
Healthier than just a week before
I just pray please God no more.
A month passes and a catscan is done
Knots in our stomachs
The waiting game is no fun.
An appointment with the doctor,
They say most is gone
But a small mass does remain,
Probably scarring, and your done.
Not the news you wanted to hear,
Disappointment in your eyes
And I too can see & feel your fear.
Next step a P.E.T
This will show if the cells are alive,
Or if your cancer-free.
The day arrives you go in for the P.E.T
Another waiting game
We wait so patiently.
Stressed, nervous and anxious
We wait to hear
Have our prayers been answered?
Or news that we fear?
The Wednesday is here
For us to find out
The news everyone is dying to hear about!
Working Im dying to hear..
The hours seem so long
I sit & wonder is he ok? Is it gone?
I get the call from you
And you start to speak,
My heart beating soo fast..
Time feels like slow motion waiting for the news at last.
Then you say The scan shows negative, the cells are dead.
I am speechless, I giggle then I cry!
P.E.T. shows you are CANCER FREE at LAST!!
I always knew this day would come,
But I also had my fear,
Fear of loosing you to this horrid disease
And not getting to have you for all eternity!
Here you are 6 years have past,
Fighting this cancer-battle,
My warrior, my fighter you got through it
And here is the end at last!
Take a deep breath and let all the fear go,
No more cancer, move forward with life
Our two beautiful girls, and I as your wife!
Thank you heavenly father for your mercy and love,
Thank you for being so faithful
And always holding onto Mario from above.
Mario is a miracle of our Lord and Savior
Words can never express
Our amazement at this cancer CURE!
Our prayers never went unheard, and the promises ring true
God loves unconditionally,
His love, mercy and faithfulness always comes through!
And the prayers of the faith shall save the sick. James 5:15
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Here I am just 22
With a beautiful daughter
And a man with whom I said I Do.
We are sharing our lives day by day
Happy and normal
Until the squeeze and ouch you say.
The doctor looked, prodded and poked
Yet Im a machine
You use to joke.
Catscan lead to the biopsy
What could it be?
You and I scared as can be.
Then came the dreaded night with that call
Mario you have cancer.
You laid in shock and I started to bawl.
Needles IVs - Chemotherapy
Seeing you sick and weak
It hurt deep within me.
Weeks go by and out comes your hair
Loving you unconditional
Yet you started to doubt I cared.
I was hurting so deep inside
Seeing you sick yet Im helpless
Id hide when I needed to cry.
I didnt want you to worry about me
Its not about me
Crying hurting I didnt want you to see.
I love you so much Mario my husband
Id do anything to make you feel better
Heal you, hold you grab your heart and mend.
Chemotherapy passed to months of hope yet worry
Catscans, pet-scans, blood tests galore
Please God let that mass be gone we cant take anymore.
Then comes the word
Mario its still 4cm
Surgery we really should!
Scared worried with questions of why
Im so scared, I dont want to loose him
I grab my pillow and cry.
Then comes the day of the surgery to be cancer-free,
I hold Marios hand
Then they say its time and wheel him from me.
I sit in the waiting room anxious as can be,
Just hear something from the nurse
Could really help me
Call one,
Things are going fine
hes doing great his so strong and young.
Call two, The Dr. says I need to speak with you
He comes in with blood from head to toe
His aorta burst, his bleeding real bad there may be nothing we can do.
My knees give in and I drop to the floor
I grab my mom and start to weep
I feel my heart being ripped from within my core.
With family surrounding me,
Hugging - praying
Lord God I love him please dont take him from me!
Stop the bleeding, make it stop
Crying out I scream.
Dad but I love him so much.
Time moving sooo slow,
I would look around the room
Grandma, Espie Mom and Dad
Everyone weeping with hearts sooo sad
Its not his time we all would pray
Making the bleeding stop I cried
I need him I would say!
Doctor came and said the bleeding stopped
Praise the Lord we all said
But wait the cancer still remains.
I see him bloated, with so many tubes
I burst into tears
Why all this? Why ICU?
Two weeks I lived at the hospital
Theres no way I could leave
My entire family did agree
We slept in the trailer for night after night
Watching and praying over Mario
For his will to keep up the fight!
He is improving so drastically
The Doctors are amazed
Lord watch over him and heal him so he can be cancer free
Weeks go by with anticipation
Out of ICU walking eating
I just want to take him home with me!
Finally the day comes released to go home
Excited, relieved
You are a machine you have really shown.
Months of healing still ahead
Hurt, healing
Many tears have been shed.
I had to be strong - be there for him
Help his mom and my family
It was hard but for him I would do it all again
Dialysis was so tough for him every week
Kidneys start working
So he can feel normal and begin to eat.
That soon was done and past
Mario you are doing so great
Healing and progressing so fast.
Days would get tough, with loss of hope and care
I would be crying deep inside for you
Yet, with you I would never share.
I want to you strong, healthy and happy
I want you to feel better
And know you are such a huge part of me.
When youre weak and start to cry
It hurts me so bad
It feels inside like I could die.
You are my life, my soul my everything
If I could make it go away
For you I would do anything.
Months ahead of radiation
Once your done
We will go on a vacation.
You stayed so strong,
One year has passed
But it feels sooo long.
You are done with radiation
Were so happy that now youre done
Smile, live, laugh time for some fun.
Then one morning you awake
With no strength
You go and wash your face
Bells Palsy struck you
I cry at night why Mario
What did he do?
Lord God please no more after all weve been through.
So many nights to sleep I cry
I love him so much,
He is my life for him I would die!
Please Lord God touch him and heal
No more cancer
No more hurt and pain to feel.
I hide my hurt, worries and fears
I know Ill live a long life
With Mario for many many years
If only he knew the love I had
Maybe he would see my heart
And know I will be here forever as I was from the start.
Ill keep my tears hidden in my pillow,
Worries in my head
Questions in heart I just pray lord help get through to tomorrow!
Months have passed since the radiation complete
the doctor says
Mario, I really feel cancer you have beat!
We will watch and monitor you,
see you in July
and see whether the mass is gone or grew.
Thank you Lord God for your mercy and love
for healing my husband,
continue to heal him and watch over him from above!
A recent catscan reveals more mass within - a biopsy they did to see what in the world it is.
Results have returned, still seminoma remains... we will press on and fight this disease. I really thought we were done, I thought I was sure. LORD GOD - please provide the CURE!
Two rounds of chemotherapy done,
its been rough and the hospital stays are no fun.
A catscan has been done to check the progress of the mass,
to make sure chemo is working
so more chemo, will be the last.
The results are in from the scan
Mario had a dream that beating cancer he can!
The scan reveals the mass of the lung is gone!
And the others are so small
Mario will be cancer-free soon, it wont be long!!
God is so faithful, God is so true
His unfailing love
Helps us get through
Chemo is finished he is done,
Chemicals making you sick
The three months have been no fun.
Tomorrow I pick you up for good
Bringing you home
Resting, sleeping where you should.
Your strength amazes me
Im so proud to be your wife,
And I love you unconditionally
A little set back we face
blood levels high
I take the dreaded drive to that place.
The doctors say you shouldnt be talking,
levels this high
you definitely shouldnt be walking.
You are the "Miracle Man" of City of Hope,
Its simply God, his simple miracles
And love ~ with that we cope.
The numbers are going down as they should,
God saved your kidneys,
Your life and we knew he would!
Your hospital stay feels so long,
Each day you get better
So you can come home and these days be gone.
Bringing you home
Healthier than just a week before
I just pray please God no more.
A month passes and a catscan is done
Knots in our stomachs
The waiting game is no fun.
An appointment with the doctor,
They say most is gone
But a small mass does remain,
Probably scarring, and your done.
Not the news you wanted to hear,
Disappointment in your eyes
And I too can see & feel your fear.
Next step a P.E.T
This will show if the cells are alive,
Or if your cancer-free.
The day arrives you go in for the P.E.T
Another waiting game
We wait so patiently.
Stressed, nervous and anxious
We wait to hear
Have our prayers been answered?
Or news that we fear?
The Wednesday is here
For us to find out
The news everyone is dying to hear about!
Working Im dying to hear..
The hours seem so long
I sit & wonder is he ok? Is it gone?
I get the call from you
And you start to speak,
My heart beating soo fast..
Time feels like slow motion waiting for the news at last.
Then you say The scan shows negative, the cells are dead.
I am speechless, I giggle then I cry!
P.E.T. shows you are CANCER FREE at LAST!!
I always knew this day would come,
But I also had my fear,
Fear of loosing you to this horrid disease
And not getting to have you for all eternity!
Here you are 6 years have past,
Fighting this cancer-battle,
My warrior, my fighter you got through it
And here is the end at last!
Take a deep breath and let all the fear go,
No more cancer, move forward with life
Our two beautiful girls, and I as your wife!
Thank you heavenly father for your mercy and love,
Thank you for being so faithful
And always holding onto Mario from above.
Mario is a miracle of our Lord and Savior
Words can never express
Our amazement at this cancer CURE!
Our prayers never went unheard, and the promises ring true
God loves unconditionally,
His love, mercy and faithfulness always comes through!
And the prayers of the faith shall save the sick. James 5:15
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Take Care!!!!!! DON
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