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  • #16
    Hi all,

    I find that I've become much more sensitive to other people's pain. News reports that I could callously watch beforehand affect me deeply now. Stories of other people's tragedies haunt me for days afterwards.

    I don't think that it is lower levels of testosterone that is causing this. When I went through the initial stages of treatment, I was touched by the concern of my friends and family, but even more so by strangers... nurses, phlebotomists, doctors, xray technicians, etc. These people were amazing, and I can tell that they cared for others (thus their chosen career, I guess). I mean, I was always a bit sensitive for a guy, but now this is out of control...

    ... I rather like it

    Detected mass 10-6-06, Radical left I/O 10-10-06, Stage I seminoma, 1.5 cm primary, No LV invasion, No Rete Testis Invasion... Currently on Surveillance.


    • #17
      I knew I had read this thread before, but hesitated to post a response. Now I know why.

      Back when I was in grad school, I had a really bad bout with depression. It took me about 2 years to get out of that funk, and since then, I have been doing great. My GP (who totally kicks butt: she was the one who made sure that I was thoroughly examined as soon as I told her of my symptoms prior to TC diagnosis) said that relapsing into depression can happen. Then came the TC diagnosis, and I am worried it may return unexpectedly.

      That said, I don't think depression hit again, but I would be lying if I didn't say I've had my down moments since this fight began. The time where I clearly "lost it" was while reading about Cuss two days ago. I couldn't sleep that night, and I felt numb most of the day. The way I look at it is that it wouldn't be human to keep all those emotions bottled up. It was definitely cathartic to let it out.
      "Life moves pretty fast; if you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
      11.22.06 -Dx the day before Thanksgiving
      12.09.06 -Rt I/O; 100% seminoma, multifocal; Stage I-A; Surveillance; Six years out! I consider myself cured.


      • #18
        I can't even watch the stupid tv cop shows, in the past people slicing and dicing each other used to be entertaining now it just makes me sick. Am I depressed? No, not one bit, but after seeing the true face of human suffering I no longer see it as entertainment. I'm actually looking foward to seeing the new Will Smith movie and I'm gonna bring my own tissues.
        Son Jason diagnosed 4/30/04, stage III. Right I/O 4/30/04. Graduated College 5/13/04. 4XEP 6/7/04 - 8/13/04. Full open RPLND 10/13/04. All Clear since.

        Treated by Dr. Rakowski of Midland Park, NJ. Visited Sloan Kettering for protocol advice. RPLND done at Sloan Kettering.


        • #19
          *Takes 3 fish oil*
          Everything is oooohhhhhh kaaaayyyyyyy

          Aged 23 ;; 09/06 left I/O ;; Markers normal ;; 100% Seminoma Stage 1. ;; 10x8x16mm & 7x7x8mm ;; rete testis invasion. ;; no vascular invasion. ;; surveillance. ;; HRT.