A bit embarassed to ask this, but........

[djmac]

Hi all,

I find that I've become much more sensitive to other people's pain. News reports that I could callously watch beforehand affect me deeply now. Stories of other people's tragedies haunt me for days afterwards.

I don't think that it is lower levels of testosterone that is causing this. When I went through the initial stages of treatment, I was touched by the concern of my friends and family, but even more so by strangers... nurses, phlebotomists, doctors, xray technicians, etc. These people were amazing, and I can tell that they cared for others (thus their chosen career, I guess). I mean, I was always a bit sensitive for a guy, but now this is out of control...

... I rather like it

djm

[Fed]

I knew I had read this thread before, but hesitated to post a response. Now I know why.

Back when I was in grad school, I had a really bad bout with depression. It took me about 2 years to get out of that funk, and since then, I have been doing great. My GP (who totally kicks butt: she was the one who made sure that I was thoroughly examined as soon as I told her of my symptoms prior to TC diagnosis) said that relapsing into depression can happen. Then came the TC diagnosis, and I am worried it may return unexpectedly.

That said, I don't think depression hit again, but I would be lying if I didn't say I've had my down moments since this fight began. The time where I clearly "lost it" was while reading about Cuss two days ago. I couldn't sleep that night, and I felt numb most of the day. The way I look at it is that it wouldn't be human to keep all those emotions bottled up. It was definitely cathartic to let it out.

[dadmo]

djm:
I can't even watch the stupid tv cop shows, in the past people slicing and dicing each other used to be entertaining now it just makes me sick. Am I depressed? No, not one bit, but after seeing the true face of human suffering I no longer see it as entertainment. I'm actually looking foward to seeing the new Will Smith movie and I'm gonna bring my own tissues.

[Michael112]

*Takes 3 fish oil*
Everything is oooohhhhhh kaaaayyyyyyy