Pain while ejaculating

[merc]

Hello,

I have a question.
I had my right testicle taken out. I didn't have to do chemo - I will have my 1 year CT scan on the 15th of September (fingers crossed).

I have pain when I ejaculate. It's like a feel of "cold" and "warmth", and it's around the scar on my belly (the cut used to take the testicle out).

Does anybody here experience the same pain? Shall I be worried about it? Shaii I see a urologist?

I guess that's the channel the testicle had to go through when the doctor took it out.

Thanks!

Merc.

P.S.
So much for feeling great. I caught some kind of virus here in Nicaragua... http://www.mobily.com Home home home home...

[Karen]

merc,
I read your blog and am very concerned about you.....I know you weren't going home for a few weeks but given the weight loss and what you are going through now you need proper medical attention the nearest place you can get it. Home, home, home with you!!!!

[Ras Joe]

Wow-- I just read your blog and I have to say you have some very profound and intelligent ideas bursting out of the little bit that I read. With that said, you are obviously an intelligent person-- so, why don't you do what you can to get home. You need treatment brother, if not for the dreaded "it" (as described in your blog), for this virus that is wasting you away. We still may use the stupid "royal system" here in the US but I know 4Kg is too much to lose so fast. I pray you get some help and support being sick and alone bl*ws. P.S. sorry I don't have anything to add that could help with your pain problem from my experiences.

[merc]

I know.
A friend offered me a ticket straight back to Australia. However... that's about 40 hours away (gotta go to Miami, then Rome, then Singapore, then Perth).

If there was an option to teleport myself, then I'd do it. But, the thing is, every bloody three months I somehow get convinced that my AFP is gonna be 434 in my next test, and I will have to go through chemo (big deal; a lot of people here have). And every time... I am fine. So, this time I decided to be strong, and yes, the weight loss is a problem, but there are many reasons why it's happening and will get it checked in in Panama.

Until then, I really really really don't wanna freak out. I probably just have a gut infection, and it will pass (still pretty bad). And, when I go back, for my CT scan (on the 15th of September, 28 days late, agreed with my oncologist), I will discover - once more - that my AFP is 1.4 and that I am well.

The only strange stuff is the weight loss, right now. And... well, pain when I ejaculate, which I am still waiting a response here...

Fingers crossed - as always.

Merc.

merc,
I read your blog and am very concerned about you.....I know you weren't going home for a few weeks but given the weight loss and what you are going through now you need proper medical attention the nearest place you can get it. Home, home, home with you!!!!

[merc]

What bothers me, is that the weight loss happened BEFORE the virus. And before getting sick now, I was completely 1000000% fine - actually, more than fine. (The only real problem being the weight loss and the ejaculating pain).

I am so confused. Being sick is awful. Now the temperatore has gone down, and I can finally at least think straight (while not vomiting).

I am so confused, because one part of me is telling me that I will be fine; another part of me is scared of the pain and the weight. But, neither of them seem to be a symptom of "it" being back... (is it?)

As I said, I am MANY hours away from home (I am actually Australian); plus, I need to go to Italy first - I have family there and I really, really wanna see them, because I haven't since getting sick last year.

How about this: I get the AFP tested the minute I hit Panama, If it's like more than 20, I get on the first plane to Italy, say hello to mumy, four days later I go back to Oz and get checked properly.

Sounds like a sound plan?

Merc.

Wow-- I just read your blog and I have to say you have some very profound and intelligent ideas bursting out of the little bit that I read. With that said, you are obviously an intelligent person-- so, why don't you do what you can to get home. You need treatment brother, if not for the dreaded "it" (as described in your blog), for this virus that is wasting you away. We still may use the stupid "royal system" here in the US but I know 4Kg is too much to lose so fast. I pray you get some help and support being sick and alone bl*ws. P.S. sorry I don't have anything to add that could help with your pain problem from my experiences.

[Ras Joe]

Sorry, I assumed getting home would be easier than what you have described. Even though I am very underweight myself-- I am praying that God will take from me and give to you the Kgs you may need-- make it to Panama safely brother.

[merc]

Thank you Ras - thank you everybvody.

Need to go and lie down now...

See you mas tarde,

Merc.

Sorry, I assumed getting home would be easier than what you have described. Even though I am very underweight myself-- I am praying that God will take from me and give to you the Kgs you may need-- make it to Panama safely brother.

[Scott]

I wouldn't assume these symptoms indicate recurrence, but I would seek medical attention anyway (and, of course, let them know your history). You sound miserable!

[merc]

Scott: thanks for your response!

I think I'm gonna print this out:

"I wouldn't assume these symptoms indicate recurrence" :-D

I am sorry for sounding miserable. I get sad when I am sick...

Merc.

I wouldn't assume these symptoms indicate recurrence, but I would seek medical attention anyway (and, of course, let them know your history). You sound miserable!

[Ras Joe]

Sounds like a plan-- I am not a doc but I would get what ever I could get checked done ASAP. You know what type of numbers you should have so if they can do more in Panama, why not get them done? It might answer a lot of questions and even give you more time in Italy, the country is still probably high from the Cup win and it will probably be a blast!!-- P.S. What do you think about the Juve scandal?? If you don't follow football/soccer this should be ignored, sorry. But if you do, I wanted the Soccer-Roos to upset the world at the Cup-- I like Harry Kewell-- I am a big Liverpool supporter--Go Reds!!

[Scott]

I am sorry for sounding miserable. I get sad when I am sick...

Me, too. No need to apologize!

[merc]

OK.
It's just that I swore I would never check my AFP 'on my own"... But I guess it's for a good cause.

I can't test my AFP here, because I am here for like 5 days, and it takes 5 days to get the results back - which in Nicaragua means anything between 5 and 15 days.

About Italy... I was actually born there (!). And, even though I don't have an Italian passport, if could in theory put together the little mountain of paperwork required to get one (no, it's not gonna happen).

It was WEIRD watching Australia-Italy. Really weird.

When Australia lost, I felt very sad. When Italy wonagainst france... it reminded me of how bad Italy is, and mmade me appreciated Australia even more. France should have won. I read http://www.repubblica.it, and when the Juventus scandal came out, I... well, I stopped. It became a little too much :-D

Merc.

Sounds like a plan-- I am not a doc but I would get what ever I could get checked done ASAP. You know what type of numbers you should have so if they can do more in Panama, why not get them done? It might answer a lot of questions and even give you more time in Italy, the country is still probably high from the Cup win and it will probably be a blast!!-- P.S. What do you think about the Juve scandal?? If you don't follow football/soccer this should be ignored, sorry. But if you do, I wanted the Soccer-Roos to upset the world at the Cup-- I like Harry Kewell-- I am a big Liverpool supporter--Go Reds!!

[Scott]

I'd be more concerned about a parasitic infection or something similar right now.

[Karen]

merc,
Your posts sound a little better, hope you're on the mend from the runs and vomiting. Understand you're trying to be stong and not let "it" get the best of you and send you running to the doc, but you have concerning most-likely-not-"it" symptoms. Hope yo get checked so you can enjoy your tinme in Italy!

[merc]

OK, I am a lot better. Stopped vomiting yesterday. Temperature has gone down. Things look brighter.
I was just being a fuss-pot, as always.
I will go to Panama, have loads of fun and alcohol (err... that always seems to happen in Panama, but normally I don't drink much!). Then, I'll go to Italy, enjoy my fantastic friends over there, and then I will go back to Australia, have my CT scan, and discover that AFP is normal, and everything is good.
This sounds like a plan. If it happens... great. If it doesn't... well, that's great as well - and will go with whatever comes. What else could I possibly do?
Being sick is awful. Whatever I had, made me realise just that. It's amazing how quickly we forget this... when we are well, it feels like we will never ever get sick again. When we are sick... well, it feels like we'll be sick forever.
And sickness is the hardest thing to accept. I wrote a little earlier that pain comes from desire, and today, but especially yesterday and the day before that, I really, really did not want to be sick. I tried my best to "accept" my condition. I thought "what's the point of not wanting to be sick? You are sick. That's the only truth". And yet... I didn't want it. I didn't.
Thanks to this blog, and thanks to these life-saving forums, a lot of people knew I was sick. Well, I can't stop thinking that the thoughts, prayers, meditations of these people helped me get better. Maybe it's all in my head... but what's the difference?

Thank you all.

Merc.

P.S.
I posted this on my blog as well

merc,
Your posts sound a little better, hope you're on the mend from the runs and vomiting. Understand you're trying to be stong and not let "it" get the best of you and send you running to the doc, but you have concerning most-likely-not-"it" symptoms. Hope yo get checked so you can enjoy your tinme in Italy!