My right testicle (the survivor) has been really sore the past few days. Much like my left was preceding my left orchiectomy and EC diagnosis.
The thing is, I am terrified to do a full exam. My nut feels a little swollen, but not as hard as my left did when I had the tumor. Truthfully, I'm scared as hell I'm going to lose my other ball. The calming thing is, I beat it the first time, and I would go through another 3x BEP just to say "**** you cancer" again if I had to.
I've been through it already, I'm not afraid of the cancer part, but I'm terrified of losing my last ball.
I have an appt with my oncologist in 3 weeks, so I know it's not life or death, I just want the pain to go away, and my ball to return to normal.
I ****ing hate this.
The thing is, I am terrified to do a full exam. My nut feels a little swollen, but not as hard as my left did when I had the tumor. Truthfully, I'm scared as hell I'm going to lose my other ball. The calming thing is, I beat it the first time, and I would go through another 3x BEP just to say "**** you cancer" again if I had to.
I've been through it already, I'm not afraid of the cancer part, but I'm terrified of losing my last ball.
I have an appt with my oncologist in 3 weeks, so I know it's not life or death, I just want the pain to go away, and my ball to return to normal.
I ****ing hate this.
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