Hello, all.
I just posted a few days ago concerning my boyfriend. This is our second time around with testicular cancer. He is now 20 years old. He had his first I/O on the left side when he was 19. The biopsy showed that it was a stage 1 seminoma. He decided to do radiation therapy at that time as a percaution, and he did that for about 3weeks. He has been seeing the urologist and radiation oncologist regularly since then and has been getting chest x-rays and blood work done every few months.
Just a few weeks ago, he noticed a lump in his remaining testicle. This past Tuesday, after being given time to go to the sperm bank, he had his second I/O done. He is recovering very well from the surgery. Much better than last time, actually. He has had much more of an appetite this time around, and I think that helped his recovery a lot. Now we are just WAITING for the biopsy
results. Also, we're trying to deal with starting the testosterone replacement therapy.
I have been with him through both of his surgeries, and while neither one was easy to deal with I'm having a much harder time this time around. I guess I made the mistake of thinking that we were done with all of that. Now we're 19/20 years old and having to deal with stuff like testosterone therapy and wondering if we are ever going to have kids. We're also both in (different) Universities and trying to focus on our studies. I'm having such a hard time focusing on my studies right now, and I've been making lots of trips home to be with him through surgery and through his recovery, and my school work is starting to suffer because of this. I'm also having a pretty hard time relating to people right now. It's hard for me to live in the dorm and hear people outside laughing and being silly while I feel so sad and helpless right now.
I feel so weak compared to him. I try to stay strong for him, but I have a hard time because I am just very worried. I am a worrier by nature, which doesn't help anything. He is always so positive. I try to get him to talk to me about how he's feeling, and he always gets a huge smile on his face and tells me how he is doing just fine, and how he, "doesn't worry about things like I do." He really seems to be doing wonderfully in his recovery and with his spirits right now.
I'm just having such a hard time being away from him at a time like this, and I can't get my mind off of it. Especially since we are still waiting for the biopsy results. I just wish that those would come soon! It's just so hard not knowing. He had chest x-rays and a ct scan done about a month ago before he had the surgery (at the same time as the ultra sound) and those looked clear which eases my mind some.
Lately, I've been having bad feelings about his urologist, too, and wondering if he is going about things the right way. There's just been a few things that seem a little off to me after all of the research that I've done on the topic. I don't really have a say in this area, though, because I am just a girlfriend. A very serious girlfriend, but just a girlfriend. He is, THANK GOD, still covered by his parents insurance, so all of these kind of decisions are up to him and his parents. He does come to me for advice, though, which makes me feel much better. He says that he knows that we're going to be together for a very long time, and he knows that his going through this is also affecting me. He tries with all of his might to keep me in the loop, and I love him for that, but I just wish I could be a bit more involved in everything. I think I feel the need to be so involved sometimes because I just feel so helpless. I just keep wishing there was something I could do to make all of this go away, but I just can't. All I can do is give extra kisses and hugs, and tell him how amazing I think he is and how proud of him I am and just try to comfort him in any way possible.
I'm sorry this is so long, but I just needed to vent to people who I thought could understand some of the things that I'm going through right now.
-Tiffany
I just posted a few days ago concerning my boyfriend. This is our second time around with testicular cancer. He is now 20 years old. He had his first I/O on the left side when he was 19. The biopsy showed that it was a stage 1 seminoma. He decided to do radiation therapy at that time as a percaution, and he did that for about 3weeks. He has been seeing the urologist and radiation oncologist regularly since then and has been getting chest x-rays and blood work done every few months.
Just a few weeks ago, he noticed a lump in his remaining testicle. This past Tuesday, after being given time to go to the sperm bank, he had his second I/O done. He is recovering very well from the surgery. Much better than last time, actually. He has had much more of an appetite this time around, and I think that helped his recovery a lot. Now we are just WAITING for the biopsy
results. Also, we're trying to deal with starting the testosterone replacement therapy.
I have been with him through both of his surgeries, and while neither one was easy to deal with I'm having a much harder time this time around. I guess I made the mistake of thinking that we were done with all of that. Now we're 19/20 years old and having to deal with stuff like testosterone therapy and wondering if we are ever going to have kids. We're also both in (different) Universities and trying to focus on our studies. I'm having such a hard time focusing on my studies right now, and I've been making lots of trips home to be with him through surgery and through his recovery, and my school work is starting to suffer because of this. I'm also having a pretty hard time relating to people right now. It's hard for me to live in the dorm and hear people outside laughing and being silly while I feel so sad and helpless right now.
I feel so weak compared to him. I try to stay strong for him, but I have a hard time because I am just very worried. I am a worrier by nature, which doesn't help anything. He is always so positive. I try to get him to talk to me about how he's feeling, and he always gets a huge smile on his face and tells me how he is doing just fine, and how he, "doesn't worry about things like I do." He really seems to be doing wonderfully in his recovery and with his spirits right now.
I'm just having such a hard time being away from him at a time like this, and I can't get my mind off of it. Especially since we are still waiting for the biopsy results. I just wish that those would come soon! It's just so hard not knowing. He had chest x-rays and a ct scan done about a month ago before he had the surgery (at the same time as the ultra sound) and those looked clear which eases my mind some.
Lately, I've been having bad feelings about his urologist, too, and wondering if he is going about things the right way. There's just been a few things that seem a little off to me after all of the research that I've done on the topic. I don't really have a say in this area, though, because I am just a girlfriend. A very serious girlfriend, but just a girlfriend. He is, THANK GOD, still covered by his parents insurance, so all of these kind of decisions are up to him and his parents. He does come to me for advice, though, which makes me feel much better. He says that he knows that we're going to be together for a very long time, and he knows that his going through this is also affecting me. He tries with all of his might to keep me in the loop, and I love him for that, but I just wish I could be a bit more involved in everything. I think I feel the need to be so involved sometimes because I just feel so helpless. I just keep wishing there was something I could do to make all of this go away, but I just can't. All I can do is give extra kisses and hugs, and tell him how amazing I think he is and how proud of him I am and just try to comfort him in any way possible.
I'm sorry this is so long, but I just needed to vent to people who I thought could understand some of the things that I'm going through right now.
-Tiffany
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